Tuesday, December 22, 2009
...
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Call me Rainbowlips
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
HA Cheat!
I haven't narrowed it down yet
but I need more reactionaries!
I am recruiting.
Join the Absent Army!
Join the APATHETIC WAR!
You right there yes you!
Did you know there is a war going on?
Did you know that you have been lied to ever day of your life by filthy rich demigods on your magic telli?
Yes it's true...
SO prey that you don't let them Right out the story in their words.
Who are they? You ask.
The man in the suit telling jokes in the news room.
The woman in the dress yelling about the terror that she knows we supply.
I don't want a new generation of picket fences, nor do I want picketers.
I want the New militia, I want a revolution from a crumbling joke of a democracy to something with Truth as a foundation.
We are not equal and but we are free, and Though we can never have both.
I will use my freedom and do somefucking things about it.
It's easy. CLick the red button baby.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
I miss you.
I do not like being away from you.
You give me the only reason to stay where you are.
I want to pack you in my suitcase, my only necessity.
Love is no good for creativity.
I'm far too happy for poetry writing.
I do not care if it is impossible for you to always be happy.
I make it my life goal to make you happy at all times.
You hear that?
My life goal.
I'm going to come home.
Home to you.
No more airplanes.
Je t'aime, but you're crazy love.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Dream Bringer, Cloud Chaser
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Tiny Teardrop
Monday, September 28, 2009
angel of mine, oh sinner of mine.
lite up your cigarette and give me your arm
it's too cold outside, arch angel of mine
lite up your cigarette don't dare let me try
oh guard dog of mine, oh sinner of mine.
watch the smoke curl up and over again so fearful and curious
i wish i was it.
lite up you cigarette and send up my prayers
i don't know who they go to but they are all yours.
Lite up your cigarette and listen my dear,
can you hear them wisper of the air around our heads.
Oh my dear, it see the light in you eyes.
Oh my dear, it can feel the lightness of care.
Oh my dear... i am telling a story and it's all about sitting and feeling like things just might
change but i will have you my dear, my angel my sinner my dream and my dreamer
sit with me dont' write about me don't tell about me
just sit with me and talk with me if you ahppen to make me laugh
oh my dear it see us the smoke as it flies even farhter becoming the rest of the sky
can you see it my love my angel my sinner can you see it and breathe it.
I'm cold my dear, don't go my dear, not ever.
Just sit here and talk with me and i'll make you laugh if i can.
For Future Referance I didn't Write This. I Am Not Quite That Awesome.
indifference and dislike; also of his race and nation, the soil that fed him and his
forebears, the stones and sands of his familiar places, long-silenced battles and
struggles of conscience, of the smiles of girls and the slow utterance of old
women, of accidents and the gradual action of inexorable law, of all this and
something else too, a single flame which in every way obeys the laws that
pertain to Fire itself, and yet is lit and put out from one moment to the next, and
can never be relumed in the whole waste of time to come.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Alex Grey
Sunday, September 6, 2009
This is not to be born
Friday, August 28, 2009
I have to.
I have to care.
I have to think about the near future and what i will and will not have.
I have to worry when I'm scared for my family and for myself.
I have to worry.
I have to care.
I have to.
That is not my fault.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Blind
I saw how life should be lived...
And so when all the world went black...
I could then see.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
little drops of rain
There was a Ferris wheel that had a face blinking in lights and then the
one face became three faces that spun and spun and wound around and around.
There was laughter but it was under water somewhere far away.
The music was tinkling and dinging,
Da dada da dada dadingding tingaling dada.
Smells everywhere so alien.
Sweet smelling and loud smelling and too full smelling.
Then voices. They were obviously speaking a different language.
Something from a world where clocks are open and you can see the gears working to catch up with time. Time didn't belong here. Time is much too fast for a place like this.
"A Nuf Esouh! Dluow uoy ekil ot nioj em!"
Pink and green carpet was all over; mirrors moved from the inside. They breathed. Judged. This is not a house.
The world started to breathe deeper. It was compressing.
Making things look smaller; making things farther away.
Making the music sink deeper down into the water.
Goodbye music.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Agust 17th 2009
He is away from me for the first time in about eight days. This needing of a specific someone is the part I don't appreciate. Things are too easy for my own liking at the moment. I used to think about the bomb of black that will eventually come and erase the light from my days again, as it has so many times before. When is it going to strike, and am I ready this time? You're never ready. It's always the thing you least expect to hurt. This ice cube in my chest separating my ribs from one another was meant to have left years ago...It remains. It is a rock. The rock is sprouting a small leaf. I hope it becomes a fern. I will not take it from its self. When I was a kid life was bright. Bright and full of everything I figured I dreamed as a fetus in the womb. Sure there are pieces missing from the times I would rather not remember, but as a whole my life was wonderful. It all came crashing down. I felt it compressing. I felt it start to throb and the reinforcing walls began to bend inward as if I was the black hole swallowing the world that was all of life as I knew it. For a while I felt like I had just made a lapse in judgment and that because of a wrong answer I had given at the dinner table, that my father had left for good and my mother had decided to become someone else. I saw my father cry more and my mother soften less, I decided that the logical explanation was the new place we had moved was a bad place. Unfortunately our next move was lacking in one important ingredient. My dad.
I will admit he makes my world a little brighter. Though I have had trouble being able to see it. Because of course I am always feeling a complication of emotion. So you see....okay I am about to ramble. It won’t sound as concise as Raina's words and it won’t sound quite as deep and meaningful as Lauren's works, but it's the truth or something like it.
I love you, so ha!
I like it when you rant and
I secretly like it when you scream risqué shit at people out your car window.
I can't talk to anyone else really and I am working on trying to talk to you about anything I need
You know so much and you are so steadfast in what you believe, not bias exactly but stronger in your stand than I ever am.
I love your nervous habits except for when you bite your nails...
I am a fucking hypocrite, but that's okay because you are too.
You make me laugh more than anyone in the world.
I really don't have a clue what I'm laughing at because you usually are not that funny.
I really shouldn't post this, but it's a little too late since I already told you.
You are my favorite of all the peppers in the world.
No one has ever brought me flowers before and you picked my favorite ones.
No one has ever felt I deserved less pain then I have had.
No one has ever made it so hard to stop myself from being stupid.
No offense but in my mind I shouldn't trust anyone.
No, not even you.
But I do. I trust you more than I trust me.
No one has ever gone so far out of their way to make me happy in the simplest ways...
I don't want to say this but you made me cry on my secret 4th of July.
I'm scared that I'm not right again and I'm scared that somehow I may not measure up.
I'm afraid of a lot of things actually.
I would move the world for you, if I could that is.
Which is silly...
because I shouldn't miss you from one day to the next,
since I have only known you for a wHile.
I shouldn't be wasting time writing about my girly feelings,
and about how Oh-So-Sexy-My-Love is.
But the truth is that I don't have anything to offer the world really
except my interpretations.
Not much to add the all the wonders of the universe, the progression of life.
Only bullshit HAHAHAHA
Expressions.
Basically anything that comes to mind.
Lately....
it's just been you.
You're my writers block.
I'm far too happy to be an artist and it’s your entire fucking fault.
Besides, you have the perfect smile...and ...other perfect things!!!!!!! ;) ;)
What makes you think you will ever get away!
Muahhahahahaha...
(I hope you can read my sarcasm.)
I tried to be honest,
I really did,
but I’m just too busy fighting crime.
P.S. I love you. You make me happy. I trust you.
I want you, all of you, just you.
FINIS
It's too hard to admit that I never want to lose you because I'm not supposed to want that and it's dumb, and It scares me that it is so important that you know that.
My Dearest Rain ♥
~Autumn
It is a sad thing to follow blindly something you love. Yet that is what makes it so sweet...so exciting! The risk. The only risk of living is death. Don't say you are not afraid. What do you fear in trying to become something you wish! what is it that scares you so much from becoming who you are! Becoming is the closest action to raw existence that can be observed. Faith is an interesting parasite. History give example of women and men being pulled apart by horses for faith, for love. Mothers killing their own children rather than give them up. Fathers fighting their own sons and brothers for a piece of glory. No matter how many times we read and watch and know that death has followed the faithful, the reverent, the blind, we each of us has our faith. We fall in love, pray, study and worship. It becomes us. It becomes and exists.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Last night I didn't sleep for I had an amazing inspiration to actually sketch a real person. Unfortunately for me, it was five a.m. and there were, obviously, less than crowds of people to sketch. So I went through my old old old phone that is in the depths of my room and sketched everyone I could muster the talent to draw. I then proceeded to fall asleep at about ten in the A M. I woke up to find my father standing over my little nest in the living room, with a slitghtly amused look upon his face.
"Are you a cat?" He asked.
"No. I'm a no sleep."
"What is that?"
"I meant I got no sleep."
"Oh I see.Were you trying to reproduce your friends and lover in a new black realm?"
"No. I was trying to reproduce my friends so that i could have a conversation with the lot of them, but they were all too tired."
I got up to look in the mirror. I had black lines of charcoal on my face like cat whiskers and my hands were covered in black. I had black on my shirt and black on my pants. My lover walked in he door.
" You drew me?"
"uh...yes."
*thank you*
Monday, July 27, 2009
CaliasiaBella
She has the beauty to turn heads and yet she is simple.
Queen Anne's lace and olive trees surround her room, her small simple room in a villa in Italy.
She dreamt of being wed and of chocolate.
The smell followed her on the wind and throughout the trees when she walked.
It was the smell, the desire of chocolate and warmth.
The kinds of delicious treats that melt in the sun.
She wasn't frail, Calisbella, but she was not invulnerable.
She was weaker than she believed.
She needed a very strong guardian angel to protect her for on her journeys she would live as strong as she believed possible
Every day she lived in search of something, maybe it was the chocolate.
The world around her was so slight in its beauty and yet she knew what she was looking at.
She always saw the immaculate beauty no matter how small or insignificant.
So she took her time looking for whatever it was she was meant to find.
Because she understood all things beautiful she always exuded that beauty to others.
She tried her best to show what she saw and imagined to her friends...they never saw.
Chocolate was such a different thing to her.
She would laugh because chocolate's beauty her friends understood.
She felt superior at times because of what she felt above others...so she would lower herself.
Praying and finding things that others were better at.
She would never be as beautiful as the other women in the villa.
She always believed she was less than others.
Then she found it.
And she was a princess, a goddess, an angel and it was what she had that no one else in the world was better at, more beautiful to, more perfect.
She basked in the sun melting all the chocolate.
Then the wind blew and the smell was still in the air.
It wasn't chocolate.
It wasn't the olives.
It was her angel.
That night the sky was lit in an eternal show just for her and her angel.
The earth shook and the trees fell.
Everything fell.
She should never have found her angel, he told her he was glad she had, but she should have never found her angel.
Then the angels fell.
And as the sun vaulted over the vineyards and fallen trees it seemed as if nothing had ever occurred.
It seemed as if the angels were still flying in their heaven.
But there were non.
There was no smell of chocolate on the sir, merely smoke and fire.
Not a single olive tree stood tall.
The villa though crumpled was bringing itself back together.
Beauty would be found soon.
Even as she was lifted and carried to her only bed now and forever,
CaliasiaBella,
with her angel,
for they could not separate the angels bodies,
still shown the beauty surrounding her.
The beauty of dust and tar,
and fire and death.
her eyes shown only for her angel.
She glowed.
Much much more beautiful than the others.
CaliasiaBella smelled of chocolate.
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by: autumn
for: Roselie
Monday, July 20, 2009
My best friend is said to not make a good wife in the future. My best friend would make a wonderful wife. My best friend is blinded by lust. he happily ever after is being ground into dust.
My best friend doesn't know how to be a best friend. My best friend is dependent on others. My best friend is a wonderful best friend, if my best friend would let go of selfishness.
My best friend is a misinformer. My best friend is too intense for life. My best friend is self centerd with a hint of low self esteem and deeply lodged issues that were self manifested. My best friend can only see my best friend in the looking glass.
Stop starring at yourself or you will become an alien. You need to give up. You need to say sorry. you know you are better and more than you say. I think you are beautiful every way.
Don't make faces or your face will
freeze that way.
Stop sitting there wth your legs open on the castle steps it's unlady like, and pick up your glass slipper there isn't anyone worthy to pick it up for you, not yet.
Give it a minute.
Stop wishing and feeling sorry stop attempting to have control over the universe, I love you, sweetheart, and you are very strong, but it's not yours to
even nudge gently in your direction.
Stop being crass and turn your mirror into a window. See how pretty the glow of love is towards you? You have your own coices and you don't have to even tell a single soul. Besides,
you are what you eat.
I'm trying my best and I love you each dearly.
But I can't seem to get any of you to see clearly.
This life is the only one you are given.
I can't help you fly if you aren't willing.
I could if you asked and I can if you let me.
But burning your heart and your brain is just silly.
See your true beauty.
Know you are worth it.
Do yourself a favor.
Let yourself love.
~Autumn Rose
wish i had writen this*
There's a hole in our logic
There's a hole in the sky
And one day just like magic
We're all going to die
'Cause we didn't turn the lights off
And we didn't take the bus
Even though we know we should have
Oh, silly old us
Well we should have recycled
And saved our resources
While there's still someone else’s
Someone call the armed forces
And we'll blame it on terror
Also known as religion
But we shouldn't feel guilt
For protecting our children
Excuse me, sir
But is this what they call denial
Just to carry on regardless
We'll only do it for a while
We'll carry on straight down the line
Down the road to nowhere
Do you know where it is leading us
And do we even wanna go there
I don't have the answers
I don't know where we start
Start to pick up all the pieces
Of everything we've torn apart
Now, you'd think that we'd be grateful
For the fact we've got a choice
Instead we throw it back at people
Who don't even have a voice
And the teachers always told us
Told us we should love thy neighbor
And my mother always told me
Told me I should vote [new?] labor
But I don't know who to trust
And I just find it all confusing
All as useless as each other
Past the point of being amusing
Excuse me, sir
But is this what they call denial
Just to carry on regardless
We'll only do it for a while
We'll carry on straight down the line
Down the road to nowhere
Do you know where it is leading us
And do we even wanna go there
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Excuse me, sir
But is this what they call denial
Just to carry on regardless
We'll only do it for a while
We'll carry on straight down the line
Down the road to nowhere
Do you know where it is leading us
And do we even wanna go there
~Lily Allen
[Thanks to Silke for these lyrics]
[Thanks to A-Z lyrics and to all the photographers and artists whose works added to this piece]
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Rosemary
It wasn't your fault.
I loved you the first time i saw your blonde curls in my dreams.
Now all i know is that my daughter is out there
Rosemary.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Untitled #1
Lord Death will take him to the darkened realm below. I cannot Travel there i cannot ever bring him back to home.
The warmth of a fire, the comfort of his arms, home is so far away now.All i know is this darkness i must reach through.
I must bring us both home.
It's all my fault...
JUST RUN. Keep running.
Run. Follow his light.
Just run.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
September 22
I can't share
I never will
Just help me up again
Pull me back again
Stop the world again.
My greatest love sprung from my greatest hate.
Unto ages
And ages
Amen.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
As We Both Try to Write a Story...
For my lovely friend, for tagging me.
{Photo}
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.
“Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!”
He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought—
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.
And as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!
One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!”
He chortled in his joy.
’Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.
{song}